Lilith & the Incubus

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Photographer: Ange Harper

Here we go again
for those of you sick
of this shit – Karma

Happiness, eludes me
over-analyzing everything
searching for that choice to make

Looking to purpose choose life
simplicity a complex solution
blind, numb, lost & forgotten

My brain hard-wired my eyes shut
Persistent Depressive Disorder
convincingly sees only what was

Nothing gets any better
I’ve never known anything different
happiness is Far Far Away, folklore

Farther apart I age, no wiser
life flashes before my eyes, wasted
it’s a miracle I have survived thus far

I may as well be dead
it’s like I’m dead
I feel dead

Burdons not just my own; contagion
leaching into every soul I touch
Incubus fornicate in my sleeplessness

Pervasive nightmares & thoughts
leave little light – my aura
hedonism postulating pleasure

Shit shows on at 4am

Doom & disaster, spiritituality
leper colonies shun; shamed
beyond toxicity

I am cursed
so is everyone in it
locked up for my own safety

Where is Lilith?

© Copyright 2015, Jodine Derena Butler.  All Rights Reserved

REBLOGGED: By Art of Drem, 2015

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12 thoughts on “Lilith & the Incubus

  1. This poem reminds me the lyrics of gothic metal or symphonic metal songs: inner devils, pain, madness, the dark side of the feelings, sadness and myths. I learn cultivated vocabulary of english with your powerful verses.

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  2. Who is this person? This poem is using the past as the template for the future. It is not Lilith but Eve that lies here – the strength of your words will overcome the dark and loneliness of the night and let the deeds of Karma do their work

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    • Lilith was Adams first wife and created at the same time as Adam. Eve was created from Adams rib according to Jewish faith. I chose Lilith as a powerful equal rather than as a by-product of Adam. Eve represents something different to me; subservient, owned etc. But this is not the case. Lilith embodies choice and freewill. Thank you for your comments and discussion :-), much appreciated. Jx

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      • According to midrashic literature, “Adam’s first wife was not Eve but a woman named Lilith, who was created in the first Genesis account. Only when Lilith rebelled and abandoned Adam did God create Eve, in the second account, as a replacement”. It’s relevant to my poem. Jx

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