my foetal body holds
nervous balls of Fear
tying themselves into knots
that make my stomach retch –
remembering a time before
my world collided everything
became fission; an existential
explosion of pieces of me
scattered
for a moment I lost my self
●
loving more
than my desire knows
escaping those merciless depths
drowning me
that miasma of Fear rose
letting go tears
what was once mine
forever stolen
its hard to breathe
here & now my Fear rising
its ugly head penetrating
only a fraction / friction culminating
in pitiful attempts to mollify
comparing my voice to yours
once more scolded, Fear
beyond measure
gulps for air
winded
wishing for all it’s worth
for more – more than life itself
to find peace & love
to seek out that softest place
our Eden here on earth
my beautiful self in your arms
our fruit ripening my garden
she remembers
being pulled this way – that
curtain calls still fall – still
I managed to climb
that long steep drive
her body of evidence
a sixth psychic sense
she is alone Daddy
14,000 years in advance
mister black burns
& black backs down
magic raises her up, my Crone
fragrance budding
watching her blossom
where she will become
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Trials & tribulations
wax & wane
Karma will knock you off your feet
no stone will be left unturned
you will have no choice but to cut
off your nose to spite your face
I foresee Death
Charon jigging a jig
my wicked sense of humour
rejoicing
rotting in Hell for all eternity
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