‘Newborn Nightmare’ by Photographer Wojceich Zwolinski – Cambion Art
I wish you could see me but more crucial that you could see yourself
I loved you more than anyone but you gave me nothing to hold on to
or stop making nonsense some sort of sabotage
pandering to your paranoia – I preferred your sweet smile
remembering laughter when you really meant it
everything on our own terms not needing anyone or anything
your eyes meeting mine discarded clothes strewn about the place
you are all I see, nothings changed; my heart is still beating for you
wishing we were naked in our secret place, playing
with each others present tense, feeling everything we’ve lost
so we can find love again. I wish I could be happy in the madness
doing all the things you wanted me to
this something is not what I want no matter how much I keep thinking
you are everything and more because I could never love another and look past
history is so different this time, I can’t let you go when that first kiss was love
I am breaking down in my darkness my world running after my memory of you
I wish you would pick me up and cradle me in your warm arms because I’m so tired
let those thoughts go from my mouth; taste your beautiful lips
I want to take it all wrap myself around and breathe you in
I dont want to waste a minute wasting time waiting for you to rise
I wish you would walk away from those liars and tell me you love me
time wondering if it’s too late watching everyone take a deep breath
I wish I never met you but I want to see you one last night
you and all your misbehaving hoping it’s alright – but it won’t be
there is nothing worse than watching a man with his demons
and love die
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