“If I had the grace to fall apart respectfully, there would be no need for enlightenment”. JD Butler
He’s using me, I’m using him – both of us working on a palatable means to several ends & everyone’s happy on the dance floor, except me / Lady Lazarus, fully loaded
machinations mimicking my madness & everything I have survived is temporarily erased from my memory / the neglect, the rapes, the con artists & the turning of blind eyes. The violence
of insanity, cleansing the last of my contemptible dirty pieces. A ruse in the end, designed to ratify my plea bargain, still set to drown in a sea of toxic shame, churning
out green bile – something the dogs love to salivate over.
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It all sounds so depressing, except for the sun that continues to rise; refracted light beams infiltrating my cracks,
forcefully illuminating all remaining fragments of hope that haven’t yet marvelled at a setting sun. I am thankful.
If I had the grace to fall apart respectfully, there would be no need for enlightenment, you would all marvel at my unadulterated halo & drop to your knees, prostrate
but I am a mere mortal woman. No God could ever carry me across the sand or walk on water or set me down on the island of my choice,
without some sort of comeuppance; paying the ferryman requires nerves of steel / I lack the will to either live or die,
in peace.
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Reblogged this on Kindra M. Austin and commented:
I’m totally in love with this piece. ❤
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Thankyou beautiful! Much appreciated x
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You’re so welcome. I love your style. 🙂
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Thankyou darling!
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After this bellísimo poema, you can retire and drink the ambrosia of gods. The best poem I´ve read ever from you, true!
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Aw.. .thankyou beautiful x
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You’ve lost me on this…………
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I don’t think so…just because they’ve expired, doesn’t change the plan
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