Here we go again
for those of you sick
of this shit – Karma
Happiness, eludes me
over-analyzing everything
searching for that choice to make
Looking to purpose choose life
simplicity a complex solution
blind, numb, lost & forgotten
My brain hard-wired my eyes shut
Persistent Depressive Disorder
convincingly sees only what was
Nothing gets any better
I’ve never known anything different
happiness is Far Far Away, folklore
Farther apart I age, no wiser
life flashes before my eyes, wasted
it’s a miracle I have survived thus far
I may as well be dead
it’s like I’m dead
I feel dead
Burdons not just my own; contagion
leaching into every soul I touch
Incubus fornicate in my sleeplessness
Pervasive nightmares & thoughts
leave little light – my aura
hedonism postulating pleasure
Shit shows on at 4am
Doom & disaster, spiritituality
leper colonies shun; shamed
beyond toxicity
I am cursed
so is everyone in it
locked up for my own safety
Where is Lilith?
© Copyright 2015, Jodine Derena Butler. All Rights Reserved
REBLOGGED: By Art of Drem, 2015
Poetry Out West 
You know. ..I just feel Charon, and take it from there. Jx
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Thank you Penny! Jx
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Thank you el Santiago 😎
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This poem reminds me the lyrics of gothic metal or symphonic metal songs: inner devils, pain, madness, the dark side of the feelings, sadness and myths. I learn cultivated vocabulary of english with your powerful verses.
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Thank you Charon. I talk about you often 😎. You were last present in my poem ‘For my Children’. Yes, I love Mythology! Jx
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As I had hoped and expected your it is your strong use of words and knowledge of mythology that intrigues the reader
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According to midrashic literature, “Adam’s first wife was not Eve but a woman named Lilith, who was created in the first Genesis account. Only when Lilith rebelled and abandoned Adam did God create Eve, in the second account, as a replacement”. It’s relevant to my poem. Jx
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Lilith was Adams first wife and created at the same time as Adam. Eve was created from Adams rib according to Jewish faith. I chose Lilith as a powerful equal rather than as a by-product of Adam. Eve represents something different to me; subservient, owned etc. But this is not the case. Lilith embodies choice and freewill. Thank you for your comments and discussion :-), much appreciated. Jx
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Who is this person? This poem is using the past as the template for the future. It is not Lilith but Eve that lies here – the strength of your words will overcome the dark and loneliness of the night and let the deeds of Karma do their work
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Where do you find the words- they are your succour and support for release of your mind – let them flow
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No need to apologise for what is a very powerful poem, J.
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Sorry everyone. This one is just pure depression 😔
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