I am sad
I wake up alone these days
I wake up
alone
I make my breakfast
thinking
I am changing
a lifetime of bad habits
these days are nothing
like I imagined
I’ve seen better days
I think
maybe if the hollow feeling
in my chest decides
one way or another
to cut me
loose
my existential crisis;
one foot forward
two steps back
these days
turned out nothing
like I had planned
Where do I belong?
Am I where I’m meant to be?
Who do I trust?
Why would I want to anyway?
My bed is calling me
to my happy place
in more ways than one
she comforts me
while my pillows
are makeshift muscles
I spoon
& wrap around
& cling,
burying myself
I long to get lost
to disappear
to re-emerge somewhere else;
transform
into something
resembling reason
They say I run
More often than not
I turn my back
close my eyes
& hope for the best
They say ‘feel the fear
& do it anyway’
that’s never been a problem
until now
today
every move I make
takes my breath away
These days
I am like a Lily
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Well I did it! And friendship intact 😎
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These days are hard, good friendships will stand the test of time, don’t be dragged down by doubt let that rose blossom!! Mx
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Aw… (blushes). I’m not so good with moving on. Its hard to leave a friendship of nearly 18 years and still remain friends. Is it possible? I dunno. Jx
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Dark words raw emotion, but not despair, there are beautiful things in the world and you are one of them, take a bold step forward into the future as I know you can, put the sadness behind you, you are not a lily but a rose blossoming once again Mx
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